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Friday, October 28, 2005

my life is going better
I'm getting good grades, I got an internship for the summer and I feel like money is going to come in any second

I feel like I'm going to be a millionaire before 30
I've been learning about wealth and damn I feel secure for my future wealth

I play Go, I'm athletic, I feel healthier, and I look better too

my life is heading in the right direction
but somehow I'm not happy

I'm not happy that I'm not with you
I don't need an asian gf with big boobs
I don't need a hot blonde with a sexy voice
I don't need a latina lady with a nice ass
I don't need a silky chocolate sweetie with all of that
I don't need to have a harem of girls to be happy

because they're not you
damn I don't know, I just haven't been as happy as I was when I was with you

the bad days I had with you... made me feel more whole on my good days without you... I have a lot more good days than I do bad days but you're missing from my picture

without you I can't make the happy home
without you I can't smile and be myself

sure there are plenty of nice beautiful smart funny etc. etc. girls out there

but no one will just be like you no one

The only one I want is away somewhere far and man I feel it in my heart every night. No matter what the day brings, the day will always end... and at that end of the day I think of you

What are you doing?
Are you happy?
Is everything going alright?
Is there something I could do to help?
Maybe a helpful word or two?
Advice that I could give you?
An ear that you need?
A hug that I can give?
The warmth of my hand?
How are you?
How is your family?
Is your mom doing well? your dad? your brother?
How's getting into RISD?
Did you get in yet?

but maybe it's just me... maybe it's just me who needs to look ahead

Damn, I swore it to myself that you would be the last. I swore to myself I would stop looking. I did... I did stop looking... because I swore to myself that I had found the one.

I have to learn to deal with this and become a better man.
"Rewards come to those who deserve it, not to those who want it"
"When you become more,  you will receive more"

The words I live by now, and damn has it helped me through life so far. Even though I'm not happy, I am content. ^^


Saturday, October 22, 2005

my first center win. Wow I completely changed my style life is too good


Saturday, September 24, 2005

I'm 20kyu now :) going to be an amateur dan within a year


Friday, August 19, 2005

 

JANE IM SO SORRY THIS ONE IS FOR YOU

JANE: YOU"RE SO AWESOME AND KOREAN LOL!! ^_______^ teach me how to play Baduk if you know haha ;)

EDIT: I KNOW HOW TO PLAY BADUK/WEICHI-WEIQI/GO LOL
if you want to play against me msg me on aim or something (Tickle Me Im Tam)

I'm only a 29kyu on the server I play on but I was a 27kyu earlier I've beaten some higher 20 kyus on my way becoming pro player

NOTHING IS GONNA STAND IN MY WAY O_O! *SHARIINGAN* LOL

 


Saturday, June 11, 2005

My eyes hurt. LoL it's so late!! >_<
guys do you want a picture of me? O_O!! I'm scared to post it here as some people may use it against me ._.

<_< (emoticon emoticon)

Okay no more Emoticons. I JUST SAW THIS WEIRD ASS KOREAN MOVIEEEEE!! IT WAS SO LONGG AND ITS A TRUEE STORY TOOOO THE SCARY-NESS >_<.

It's called "Memories of Murder."

Jeez it's an unsolved mystery and the ending just leaves you with like.... NOTHING BUT AN UNSOLVED MYSTERY WAH!! grr... oh well it's a pretty good Korean movie.

School is so hard-d-d never do 5 week summer course classes. Just never, especially if it's Engl Composition 112. I got one week to finish 3 papers w00t w00t go me

Hmm... what's been going on with my life? Well I've been attending ECU and met a whole buncha new people who are really cool and I broke up with my ex gf. I wish we could of stayed friends or talked at least from what I knoww she seems to be doing well and I'm happy for her. It's okay if you hate me but I'm glad you're happy now if you're reading this. Sorry for what I put you through, I wish it had never ended that way.

Hmm... Chemistry is such a bitch lol Meh. *ANGST*
I went back to RO for a while but quit now as IT'S NOT HEALTHY TO MY LIFEEEEE. Well it is it's just I had an addiction problem.

Not once did I party at college or did anything "fun" :( THOUGH I DID ENJOY THE SANDWICHES AND FOOODDDD AND THE GYM ALL THE TIMEEE. I am fat now which sucks well I'm not really fat but meh whatever hahaha.

I met a girl named April. She's my lovable buncha of oats/munchkin/hunnie/sweetie/etc. (can't think now >_<) and any other fluffy happy names out there.

I AM GETTING STRAIGHT A'S THROUGH THESE TWO HELL OF CLASSES DURING SUMMER SCHOOL LOL I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO DIE BUT THAT'S OK CUZ... I think everyone feels like this once in a while doing something they don't want to or being pressured to do such things as such a fast pace. So I know I am not alone and that I am better off than others. Yes, I am grateful and I will cherish the opportunity I have now and make the most of it for those who are unfortunate.

Hmm, what else has happen during these past 6-8 months? Not much. I am still the same person just a little bit wiser. Hmm well a lot has happen.

April -
Hey April
Don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let me into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
<3 you sweetie everything I want and more >_< *humps* LOL
You're my everything <3 and I totally mean it.
You make me feel what no one else has given me.
<3 you so much darling there aren't enough words in the English language for me to tell you how much you mean to me.

Paul - my inspiration I love you man lol YOU USED TO BE SO FAT SON! BUT YOU ARE MAD SKINNY NOW
Chris - you are a lazy bum but I love you too. GL getting into UNC CH
Hue - you are crazy :( but I hump j00 night and day. I still say you should go for Claire <_< even tho she's evil not as evil as the rest though. Maybe Jessica >_> I don't know. Thanks for always being there and yelling at me ._.
Corey - wtfux tell me how China was welcome back cracker. You already know how I feel about you my homeboy :(
Kim - damn lol remember when we both broke up with our significant other and were like all sad and stuff hahaha. "*hugs* I LOVE YOU KIM !!" hahaha we were so gay haha
Tan - You're my cool cousin. Keep being cool and make those good grades in school.
Tuan - You're gay but its ok nice new car you got there. Enough said
Soujiro Tuan - :( WHERE HAVE YOU BEEENN I DONT SEE YOU ANYMOREE ON MY BUDDY LIST >_< WTFUX0RZ MAN.
Kelvin - O_O! STOP BEING SO GAY lol jk jk jk jk don't kill me Anh Tien lol
Tammy - >_< NNNNNNOOOOOOO i don't know what to say but it was nice talking with you all the time
Chinda - >_> 6.5 ....... I hate you, but I love you at the same time ._.
Carlos - Man we haven't kept in touch but you know I am always your friend even tho I may seem distant now. Don't let them fuck you over down there.
Jason - lol Auto School fool I heard you can make a lot of money with cars! So good luck with that. Forget Heather she's a ho haha jk Heather if you're reading this. BUT MAN IF YOU WANT SOMETHING GO PURSUE IT honestly with your heart. Don't hold back.
Kungfu Johnny - man YOU TOO WE HAVEN'T KEPT IN TOUCH EVER SINCE I WAS IN SOPHOMORE YEAR. Oh well you graduated this year I don't know where the hell you are going lol but I'll msg you sometime
Matt (NC state one) - lets MvC2 again lol I can never get tired of playing MvC2 with you
Steve (Charlotte) - O_O SUSHI OR SOMETHING LETS GO OUT AND DO SOMETHING FOOL!! O_O! lol hit me up sometime if you're reading this
Jerrod - FFXI. just FFXI. LoL LETS DO IT SOMETIME MANNN I will FFXI again someday but other than that... looks like Otakon is about to creep up around the corner. "Lets do this! LEROYYYY JEENNKINNSS!!"
Ed - don't know if you ever read my xanga but I miss you too
Muhammod - LETS BALL SOMETIME ITS BEEN A LONG TIME!
Blake - I can drive any car better than you, because I am asian lol.
Reeshi - If you're reading this, you know I HAVE UR DAMN WATCH NIKKA COME BACK HERE AND GET IT FROM ME LOL tell me about your trip from India when you get back
Alex Reher - you and your gay gf always telling me all the sex you have up in the room. Hope all is well ^_^.
Ki-chul - O_O I DONT KNOW IF YOU'RE READING THIS BUT I MISS YOUR KOREAN ASS TOO LOL SA RANG HAEE OPPAAA LOL hahahahaha jk and I mean uhh Hyung... but that sounds so gay too... nm I give up haha
Mike (Durham) - Animazement man I MISSED YOU THERE UGH! I SHOULDA WENT I SHOULD OFFFFFFF V___________________V I AM SAD NOW but oh well OTAKON AROUND THE CORNER
William - wtfux man talk to me we teh 4 must meet up again and do something together
Andy - Good luck finding the right one >=]
Amark - stop being so emo! DIGIMON > YOU! LOL hey hope this year was good for you oh well talk to me later Amark. ( >_> the 6th book comes out on the 14th of July >_> I believe. I must get it >_>)
Alycia & Megan - ._. I still need to buy you two a sundae
Jon (ECU) - I STILL LOVE YOU AND I AM YOUR FRIEND XD we should chill sometime I know things have changed but we can always DDR =] we were the first ones man founding fathers of the game mwahahhaa
Tyler - man you're just messed up loL <3 you anyway
Tony - HYUNGG HOW ARE YOU DOING lol long timeee no see but its ok talk to me sometime
Laura (ECU) - smart lil pianoist where art thou? haha it's been a while I will msg you to see what's up :) thanks for all the rides and hanging out with me at ECU
Fifi - you're such a hot indonesian. >_< GAWD YOU'RE SO HOT WITH UR BIG BOOBS LOL HAHAHAHAHAHA *RUNS* LOL <3 Fifi
Nini - WAHHHH SO AWESOME >< j00 are so cool Nini. I enjoyed talking to you so much and I miss those times man I am so sleepy XD
Lisa - WAH YOU HO LOL JK YOU'RE NOT A HO XD hahahaha <3 GOOD LUCK AT ECU
Janie - O_O!! WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING IN GREENSBOROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO haha we should chill sometime for old times sake sometime it'll be fun haha and no I'm not doing any of that stuff with you ._. it's bad hAhaahha jk I know its not
Cody - wtfux you UNC dude it's been a long time but <3 you anyway
John (Reeshi's friend) - I dont think you will read this but you're gay and hope you stay forever with your gf <3
Melissa - YOU'RE AWESOME THE MOST AWESOME-NESS GIRL HERE (*hides from all the other girls ._.*)
Ruben - >_> j00 Euro j00 need to get better with Mercurius so you can be #1 in GW:ED haha =P hope all is going well my friend
Mo - MO MO MO MO MO you're a cutie <3 haha hope life is treating you well
Atmos - you are the gayest guy in ssf2 haha thank you for all those times in ssf2 helped me alot. The talks and relaxing during our games
Matt (Bluboi) - SFA3 U ALWAYS TALK TO TUAN BUT NOT MEEE AND YOUR GF HAS BIG BOOBS MAN O_O PRETTY ASIAN W/ BIG BOOBS FOR THE WIN LOL anyway =] hope everything is good
Grace - sigh... I hope things are well with you and no I didn't go insane or anything. Don't know what has happen between us but you're still a friend to me. I hope you find the happiness you seek in life.
Igor (Fox) - hahaha ONE OF MY BESTEST ONLINE BUDDIESSS. Florida is the most messed up state everywhere LoL. I give you props for always trying to get my attention mwahahahaha good times man
Kimi - .... WHY ARENT YOU WITH MEEE LOL XD YOU SHOULD BE WITH ME GIRLLL LOL <3333333 Oh Kimi, Davey better treat you right!! If not you can be my mistress if you want LOL jk jk jk *RUNS* XD Kimi is so hottttt!!
Angela - WAAAAAHHHHHH YOU'RE SO HOT TOOOOO IF I COULD I WOULD HUMP YOU BUT I SHOULDN'T CUZ APRIL WILL KILL ME XD hahahaha
Julie - wah! You're almost lv99! I'm so happy for you! You can finally be happy through all the pain and suffering I've seen you through! gosh finally huh hahaha well HOPE YOU AND EMIII STAY HAPPY TOGETHERRR ^__________^
Emi - O_O WANNA CS GIRL?!?!? !HUH?!?!?! yeah >_> that's right bish <_< j00 scared of me XD NAH JK <3 you Emi you're so precious stop hurting yourself!! hahaha <3 take care of yourself
Lisa (greatcoatgod LoLz) - DONT KNOW IF YOU'LL READ THIS BUT... ._. I MISS YOU AND I HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL IN COLLEGE ><!!
Emilie - V_V YOU SHOULD BE WITH ME ALSO LoL GO NURSES! If I become a doctor if ever... I might consider making you one of my nurses LOL jk
Drans - RO BUDDY I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL!
Rena - SUCH A PRETTY NAME GOSH >_< STAR OCEAN 2!!!!!!!!!!!! OWNZ MEEEE hahaha j00 lebso stay happy cuz you're so cool and stop whining so much LOL *runs*
Mike (Unparalled) - we're going to make it in this world DON'T GIVE UP MAN WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER AND BEAT UP COREY CUZ HE'S A NUB!
Tony - man I never gave you the attention j00 teh deserve I KNOW I ALWAYS SAY IT BUT MAN I just wanna let you know you are really cool on my list I'm just always so busy now Inever even talk to 99% of these people on this list well.. not literally but you know we've been thru tough times but man we've always seen eye to eye / side by side you're a cool guy. Stay that way cuz someday you'll meet the girl you deserve :)
Victoria - oh you girl played with my heart T_____________T LoL gawd Victoria only if I was just a bit closer to you, you would be in my grasp gawd and you thought Corey was hot tsk tsk. YOU JUST LIKE WHITE GUYS LOL <3 kidding hope you are happy too ^_^ <3 friends forever hahaha well U WILL ALWAYS B ON MY BL SO JUST MAKE SURE YOU HIT ME UP LoL XD
Vince (jadefrost) - Thank you for everything on RO and outside. You're such a cool guy BUT DAMN MAN STOP THOSE EVIL DEEDS LOL YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT LOL oh well its cool you do all those things with reason you're not a dumb guy. :) hope you are happy man
Danny (h3llsingknight) - YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE MY ONLY SUNSHINE YOU MAKE ME HAPPY WHEN SKIES ARE GREYYY YOU'LL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOUUU SO PLEASE DONT TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAAY lol remember you always singing that song.
Brandon - >_< Thanks for paying for my attention and everything  gawd. Tho we didnt' talk much, we both had something in common. 99 agi XD nah not only that but thats the one fresh in my mind XD
Chib - gay battle priest who beat me in RO T_T <3 you
Aj - man j00 are the gay talk to me some more LoL jk you and Vince are equally cool hahaha BUT YOU'RE SUCH A PLAYA STOP TALKING TO ALL THOSE GIRLS LOL XD <33333333333333333
Larry - DONT THINK U WILL READ THIS BUT... haha <3 your knight in RO j00 are teh cool
Kierstin - WAHHHHH IM SO GONNA HUMP U THIS COMING SUMMER LOL <333333333333333 CALI HERE I COME lol jk jk ^_^ <3 u
Selena - I know we don't talk anymore. I don't see you online ever I believe. Perhaps you have blocked me or got a new s/n. Sigh I was mean to you and if we had continued to talk I would only seem to be mean since I am like everyone else to you I suppose. Though I do care about you yes about your happiness because you are linked to a big part of my life and it was unfair of me how I treated you. I wish I had paid more attention to you because our friendship did mean something to me. I guess I am just an idiot well... I won't make the same mistake again I hope and hope you are well :)
Himmy - >_<! WAHHHHH IM SO GONNA BUY YOU A STITCH TEDDDY BEAR AND YOU'RE GONNA COOK ME A HOMECOOK MEAL LOL <3333333333333333333 stay cool don't give up and thank you for picking me up when I was down.
Michele - >_< YOU'RE SO AWESOME AND SO NICE BUT YOU'RE TOO NICE LOL <333333 I know that's how you are and you can't change it (or won't change it =P) but I am always here for you. Always a place in my heart for you
Jeehoon - LOL YOU'RE NEAR THE BOTTOM OF MY LIST SUCKA hahaha <3 you for all those Marvel games and all the advice and good times. JEEHOON YOU ROCK MY WORLD LOL
Adrian - I miss you dawg. Hope things have been going well with you
Travis - Haha I just want to give your big ass a hug LoL but that would be too gay haha miss you and our AoE2 battles T_T hahaha the classic pond ship attack in black forest LoL
Elvis - j00 are gay but its okie you and ur curly long hair will always be in my memory. Also the time when my mom called you a girl when you were over at my house for a pool party LoL hahahahahaha <3 you
Chris - GAY GUY! PLAY ME A TUNE w00t w00t with your sexy sax hope things are well FUCK THE GIRLS! THEY ARE ALL HOS LOL *runs again* (not serious about that!!) XD
Aj - j00 PICK URSELF UP AND MOVE! hahaha You're a great guy man don't conceal yourself from the world. You can do great things you can do it I believe in you
John (jOOnpride) - LOL WHERE ARE YOU NOW LOL SWEDAN? GERMANY? LOL I don't know but hahahaha STILL LOVING YOU WHEREVER YOU GO LOL <3
Lester - HONGKONG BUDDY! COME BACK TO US SO WE CAN PLAY TENNIS AND BEAT UP ON HUE LOL ^_^
Shannon - aw Shannon you're so cute and beautiful wish you were mine too but you're with someone much better suited for you and I'm glad ;) hope you are doing well at UCLA :)
Chaz - GAY GUY!!!!!!! MOLLA!! UHHH BABOO!! uhh i dunno all the korean I know LOL I WILL CALL YOU CHARLES FROM NOW ON hahaha
Meike - haha I KNOW HOW TO SAY YOUR NAME !! THE FIRST ONE IN OUR GUILD MWAHAHA lol
ZeroHiei - you've always been gay and will be j00 teh study in Germany cuz j00 scared of AMERICAN SCHOOLS mwahahhaa ^_^ <3
LAST BUT NOT LEAST OMG (SO SORRY JUDY!)
SHES TEH HOTTEST GIRL HEREE OMGGG JUDDYYY LOL
JUDY!! you're so cool >_< GO HALF VIET/HALF CHINESE PRIDE LOL XD. WAHHH SORRY I FORGOT YOU!!!! WE HAVENT TALKED IN SO LONG IMA KICK UR ASS IN GUNBOUND WITH TRICO HAX I SWEAR D; !! LOL
<3333333333333333 EVERYONE!

ok I'm sure the list is bigger but man I'm so tired now LoL
yeah...
just a little bit of what I wanted to say haha

and here's two pictures of me LoL

I also got lost trying to get pictures of horses for my sweetheart <3 lol not lost but T_T I LOCKED MY KEYS IN MY CARRRRRR IT SUCKED haha *points to dates*



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